Saturday, September 27, 2014

Dear Someone who can get this real


It has been twenty-seven years, ten months, twenty-eight days, nine hours, seven minutes and four seconds of my existence and still counting. Five weeks from now I’ll be twenty- eight and I’m glad that somehow GOD made me grow old gracefully. People still think I’m twenty-five and I would often correct them by saying, “twenty”. However, I cannot be twenty hence I admit that I need to grow up.
I know I’ve made birthday wishes in the past. But I guess this would be the time I would even make one that is so... public.
I made enough money this year and I was able to buy my previous wish list items before. I also have sponsors who gave me those items.
1.    Sony Vaio Laptop – donated
2.    Blackberry Phone New Model-9320 Curve – bought using my Christmas 2013 Bonus
3.    Portable DVD Player- bought using my salary during FTP
I was thinking maybe I can celebrate my birthday virtually. Right here with people who like reading my stuff, with those who have become my friends or neighbors in Farmville, country story, mafia wars and with those who feel they actually see themselves in the things I write in my notes. They are the ones who make my virtual presence "real". I'm thankful to them for putting more sense in what I do here.
Let’s hope they have enough imagination to fill this entire page with a room full of balloons. Oh yes, how I love balloons even as a little child. Color it with hues of gold, red and white; throw in some orange, violet, green and pink too. And of course don’t forget the cake in the middle of the room. Place it on a pink table with probably lechon, spaghetti, fried chicken, suman and ice cream on the side. And if you’re in the mood for it, you can also turn water into wine.

I know I’m guilty of counting my mistakes and my faults but since it’s going to be my special day, I think I’ll start counting my blessings.

I thank you each day...
...for giving me good friends. I may have no riches to speak of, I may not have my own car or my own house but with good friends around I can hitch a ride and crash into their place anytime I need one.
...for my office. Some people think I may have lost my mind going to work in my worst weekend outfit or to dance around the office every time I’m in a good mood and when I whine or feel stupid when I have compliance that didn’t went good.

...for my wonderful parents... for loving and accepting me the way I am... for over looking my age and still giving me extra allowance. For giving me support and freedom to do what I am obliged to do.
...for my son, for understanding my choices.

And yes, for giving me a serious, loving, and mature relationship.

I read somewhere that in order to get what you want, you have to know what you want. I am not born rich. I have to work for my own wants and needs. 

Here’s my new wish list:
1.    DIgicam – waterproof or not
2.    Powerbank
3.    Trip out of the country
4.    House and Lot
5.    Car

Hmm...looks like a handful. But hopefully, slowly I’ll be able to achieve all of them.
I am so busy at work and by that, who would have time to clean up my room or the entire house? My room is entirely topsy-turvy. My clothes are scattered on top of my bed.
So I prefer to bring clothes at the office and just take my shower there. After work I go straight home and rest.

The routine takes place for almost four (4) months already. I only get time to take care of my clothes during my off. During those rest days are the times I can clean my room.  It’s not easy for me having this schedule. 24/7 duty for work, I have 2 rest days- consecutive off whether weekdays or weekends, but still on-call. No wonder I’m always lethargic and weak. But my friends, family and colleagues say it doesn’t show. Outside I may appear energetic but inside I am drained. I am conserving my strength but I guess it’s not enough. I need to do my daily tasks. I have to.

Now, its five (5) weeks before my birthday, currently planning to have my Mandatory leave. Spending it with my honey at a tranquil place of beauty and bliss. Hopefully it will be achieved and after that I will need to renew my driver’s license and PRC Nurse License then I am scheduled to take the Promotional Exam with NAPOLCOM (National Police Commission) on Nov 9, 2014. It’s another leap I need to make in order to improve my career.

I am thankful for the blessings I have right now. I am very blessed. I am able to provide my son’s basic needs and mine. I also have extra for my wants and leisure. This career had opened a lot of realization to me. I was able to relate to my dad’s job. I was also able to view differently the life of a law enforcer from a common civilian and professional. This is a whole new level of work. Not only work, but service, honor and justice.

I am disappointed with not so good news about our fellow enforcers, but it just goes to show that there is no PERFECT organization or institution, whether public or private. There will always be floss. But we have an ideal. We are the new generation or breed of law men, it is up to us not to become corrupt, unjust and abuse our powers and capabilities. Just to remind everyone that Peace and Order will only be attain with the ACTIVE support and cooperation of the COMMUNITY.

It’s not just us, not only up to us. But all of us.